Slowing down

I’ve been pretty quiet for the better part of two weeks. Call it what you will: processing, grieving, coping, healing.

I’ve responded to dozens of emails, texts and tweets in the last few weeks and I give the same response – “We’re all physically okay.” But in reality, many of us (myself included) are still healing.

I’m certain I went through all of the stage of grief – I ate my feelings; I drank my pain away; I stress-vomited nightly; I threw myself into work; I went on a mini-vacation with #MyEric; I did it all.

But what I couldn’t figure out was how to get my groove back. How do I get back to me? How do I get back to life on April 14?

And it hit me yesterday. Slow down.

As part of Orientation training, I conducted a One Word Workshop with the student leaders. For some reason yesterday, my one word came back to me… and it was exactly what I needed.

My one word is #Slow. A reminder to enjoy where I am and what I’m doing; a reminder to appreciate the work I’ve done to get here and the work I will be doing in the future; a reminder I’ve accomplished a lot and I’m lucky to be in a place I want to be. 

You’ll find me later today, slowly walking through the Public Garden, viewing storefronts along Charles Street and appreciating where I am.  #BostonStrong

Slowing down

12 thoughts on “Slowing down

  1. It’s finny that we both posted about our OneWord in relation to the marathon and our lives. I’m interested in where other locals are in their healing process, if this isn’t something a little bigger.

    Or maybe I’m crazy 🙂

    1. You’re on to something, my friend.
      I think now is the time where people realize they’re either okay or they’re not.

      I found it to be focusing… which is exactly what I needed.

  2. I’m notorious for trying (and failing miserably) “busy-ing” myself out of negative feelings. Busy is too often an escape and not the solution. Thanks for being so vulnerable in your story my friend. You have some beautiful places out there to slow down and be mindful. Proud of you as always and here for you if you need me.

  3. I had to force myself to slow down after trying to power through it all.
    Talking about taking time to take care of ourselves is one thing, but these are truly the moments where we test if we can walk the talk.
    Glad you allowed yourself to truly “slow”.
    For me, being around others helped- thanks for being there for me when I needed it 🙂

      1. Here’s how we’ll do it. Next time I see you, I’ll just give you a hug. We don’t have to talk about it, it’ll just happen and then we can move on. Sound like a plan?

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